[Aw that sadness. She wonders if that's the difference in the end. She's never had to kill. For all the death she's seen...]

[She gives a tight grin back!] He is. He's on the other side -- um not death I mean, back at my home base. With my parents, making sure when I get done my missions everything's stable. Sometimes I think "I should really feel a bit guilty about all this." Because if it weren't for me, he wouldn't be in the thick of it. Bit like his skinned knees. But I've seen how he is without me too, and I guess.. [She shrugs and squeezes John's hand right back!] That makes me think, nah he's better off with my help.